It feels like ages since I designed anything - or rather, finished designing anything - which is mostly because I promised certain people I would stop doing that, so I could do more essential things like eating actual meals and living in a dust-reduced house that maybe has fewer boxes cluttering up the basement. Since I made that commitment all I've managed is the not designing but we live in hope.
Anyhoo, last night a friend showed up at the house bearing snacks and found me sitting on the porch. Oh! she said. Look at you, reading on the porch, how relaxing!
and actually I was reading knitting stitch dictionaries. THE GUILT.
Here's the thing. I still can't find a dream shawl pattern, and I had the stitch dictionaries in my hands before I knew what I was doing.
I told myself I was just browsing, you know. Looking at pretty stitches.
Soon I was thinking, mum would love that stitch, it's like the leaf on her favourite houseplants. Or, That one would be so nice as a shawl border.
And by the time my friend showed up, I was thinking, But I designed a shawl while I was grieving for Les, why not for my own mum???
So when my friend left and I went back inside, I gave myself a stern talking to and got out a long-suffering hat to start finishing off.
(even though the hat is one of the unfinished designs that snuck through the so-called break from designing, which makes it probably not so much of an improvement.)
I dunno... maybe I don't even have the right yarn for a shawl named after my mum.
Maybe I should go shopping?